August 30, 1839 and therefore contain answers to some inquiries which we made in our first letters,

as on the propriety of observing the worship of the English Church, on polygamy of the natives, on the retention of unleavened or use of leavened bread in the Lord's Supper. References to our disunity, to the use of the native language in teaching, and other important teachings which reassure me on certain points, as well as the Society's fraternal concern for us, which emerges from the letter, [and] fills my heart with love and joy.

The letters had come on the ship "John", but several items mentioned have not yet arrived. Br. Teichelmann said he had received a very harsh letter, but he didn't want to let me read it yet.

In the afternoon I went to Klemzig again; My bride, who by the way wasn't expecting me today, came to meet me very friendly. Nevertheless, when I asked her what her heart was now, she answered that she was still undecided; She also said to her father, who had asked her what we had agreed to together, that she was surprised that I had become so happy on my last visit. I penetrated her more now, telling her not to be too sure of me; which is of no use as long as she persists in this opinion. She should not forget the unrest she was causing me and put herself in my shoes, what she would feel; if I acted like she did now.

( 235 ) With the last words, tears came to her eyes and, taking my hand, she said: she no longer wanted to be responsible for my unrest, and if I forgive her and nothing special comes between them, then she would be mine again.
Me: To that the Lord may say Amen and that she is now doubly mine.

After we talked for a while, I went to Pastor Kavel to reconcile with him. At first we talked about more indifferent things, like receiving our letters and the like, but then I broke out and said that I had come to him with a specific intention, perhaps that he would guess it? He suggested two things: either I had come because of a boy for hire from the community or because of my engagement. As an introduction to the latter, my intention could be much more, namely to unite with him, since he knew as well as I did that hearts had been estranged from one another for some time. This had also been his wish for a long time, but he did not want to pursue it, but rather complained about the matter to the Lord. When I asked him to tell me what he wanted to have in his heart against me, he replied that he considered me a Lutheran and that he had nothing against me other than the fact that he believed that I had let myself go for some time, and although I did encounter great difficulties in my profession. I had perhaps not shown the necessary seriousness and zeal for commandment, of which he had to accuse himself of, by talking to us ( 236 ) about completely indifferent things instead of the affairs of the kingdom of God when he was with us.